Don't You Remember?: Never Knew Your Name.

It has been 8 months since I have been in a committed relationship. For anyone that knows me that is absurd. I really do not understand what is going on. I feel like I am dateable and a good girlfriend. The last couple relationships I either fought like hell to keep together or went out of my way to make them happy. In the end, I was left alone. Now, I have both of those people in my life in different ways. This is a bittersweet feeling to me. Part of me wants to cut my ties and the other wants to hold on for dear life. I like to know that I am cared about but sometimes is it at the expense of myself? Probably I am a glutton for punishment. WAH WAH

My life has been a roller coaster these past few years. So much change good and bad. Some of the things that have happened to me and I have done I would not change for the world. Others I would like to forget about totally. The most recent is quitting the job I worked at for almost two and a half years. It sucks but I had to do it. It was becoming a toxic environment that was stressing me out hardcore.

After all these "lonely" months I have became really close with my friends and my family. I was never the girl that put their family at the top of their priority list. I know, that sounds horrible but it is very true. I have discovered though, that they are very important to me. My little brother is a "little shit" but I love him more than anything in the world. (even more than my cat) Here's a few pictures of our most recent boredom. Typical Bonny Michael photos.

This was before the tornadoes May 24th.

He can't open his eyes and smile at the same time.

"Don't you ever grow up."

We're special and I would not have it any other way.

I have grown distant from the ones I knew the best. It's the crappy part about becoming an "adult." The people I used to surround myself with are no longer the same people. I still see them but very rarely. How sad is that? I have became close with a new friend. I have never had so much in common with one person it is crazy!