Say You're Sorry.

It is only Wednesday but it feels like it should be the weekend.  This week has dragged on for me.  I have an inkling of why it has been like that for me though.  I have had no human contact until today besides with my family, people in my classes and the people at the wellness center.  No one that I can just laugh and be myself with.  Thank the Lord for best friends! Jessica saved me from this ongoing loneliness of this week.


Anyways I have started this new healthy kick.  I have been laid off work until who knows when (May hopefully) and I started to gain weight.  I have been going out to eat with friends due to my newfound freedom also, staying home and doing nothing with my spare time.  So, I decided Thursday that I was going to start eating healthier and working out.  I have never worked out in my life so it is definitely a new experience.  I love it though and look forward to going everyday.  The working out is a new thing I am trying in order to better myself along with drinking lots of water.  This has made me feel so much better! 


"You're so good at giving me responsibility. I wash my hands clean and let you watch me as I go.
I'm sorry for you, just so you know."


My love life is the same: non existent.  I enjoy being alone though it is so refreshing and has given me a lot of insight into myself.  I have changed and learned a lot more about what I want in life.  I would not have been able to do this before.  I was way to dependent on having someone else to get to know myself.  Putting myself first is a new enjoyable task.  


I am actually really loving UCO.  I have been doing really well in all my classes.  Although some are more boring than others the people in the classes make up for that.  I haven't been overwhelmed and that is a huge relief.  I always doubt myself when it comes to absolutely everything basically.  I am excited to possibly be interning because I honestly love to learn.  It's the perfect time right? 


"I'm not the one who went and made a mistake, I want to walk away too, but I want you to say you're sorry."