I did it.

I do not know how this has happened but I keep on becoming the person I never wanted to be.  I am becoming weak.  I use to pride myself on being so strong and opinionated.  Something has happened to where now I hold my tongue and let others take advantage of me.


I do not get it.  I started to trim the fat but now I need to finish what I have started.  I need to do this in order to be fix myself.  I am constantly fighting a battle with others and myself.  I am not perfect and cannot make everyone happy although they think I should.  It is not my job.  I can not have one sided relationships  it is not fair.  Especially to me. 


Anyways it is Spring Break!


This is part of my problem unfortunately.  I do not like having time on my hands because that is the leading cause of my frustration.  I have not done any of the homework that I intended on doing.  Luckily there is Sunday no fun day!  I have spent time with some people I care about but still it has not been enough to occupy me.  There is something missing in my life, not someone.  I have spent too much time trying to find a replacement.  When really there is not one.


As I read back through this I realize that this post is pretty depressing. Oh well, not like anyone reads this anyways!  


Oh yeah Happy St. Patrick's Day! I hope yours was better than mine.

"I cannot believe that the purpose of life is to be "happy." I think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be compassionate. It is, above all, to matter and to count, to stand for something, to have made some difference that you lived at all."

- Leo C. Rosten