Turning Tables.

"Next time I'll be braver.

I'll be my own savior.
Standing on my own two feet."

So, anyone that reads this has come to know that I am pretty fickle with my feelings.  I just try to stay on everyone's good side.  I have no idea why, I have not always been that way.  Here lately I am the one that people know that they can come to whenever they want.  It is redonkulous!! (I had to say that it seemed appropriate).  

I am getting pretty excited about the next 2.5 weeks being over with.  I will start interning and working.  I will be staying busy and that is way better than being alone with my thoughts.  I have had an interesting month or so.  I feel like I have grown a lot in that little of time.  I am not sure how.  I feel as though I have gained quite a bit of insight despite the short period of time.  

My best friend in the whole world is moving pretty far away.  I am not going to lie it makes me really depressed.  I cried the whole drive home when I found out.  I have lost touch with people that I really care about before.  It really sucks but it is all part of growing up.  I never thought it would come to this though.  In fact, as I am writing this and realizing she is moving this Saturday I am crying.  Someone very dumb told me, "Get a new friend." I replied with, "She's my very best friend and irreplaceable."  When I am really close with someone I cannot just move on like they meant nothing to me.  They will ALWAYS have a place in my heart.  I know that her leaving is what is best.  Nothing between us will change but it still makes me sad.  

I have other friends that I am close to, but it just is not the same.  I mean today I had bonding time with two girls from my Spanish class.  It was really fun we had Mcalisters and margarita's.  I live for random nights like that because it makes me feel something that I thought I lost.  I cannot really explain it.  So much of my life has changed, it is a love hate relationship.  I bounce back and forth on whether I am happier now or if I now have a piece of myself missing. I do not think that I will ever truly know.  I think that everyone has those moments though.  Moments when all they really want is for things to be the way they use to be.  When they were so happy that they would not change a thing.  Then you snap back into reality and you see how much better things are or for now at least. "Life has a way of throwing curve balls at us. It's what you do with those curve balls that really matters the most."  That is a quote from yours truly.

"Broken pieces of

A barely breathing story

Where there once was love

Now there's only me

And the lonely."

It just would not be the same blog without depressingly sad lyrics.

My dating life has been staying pretty interesting to say the least.  I went on four dates in the past month with four 

different guys.  All very different but at the end of the day I just want to be alone.  I am happy to come home and cuddle with my cat.  Judge away.  I had fun on these dates.  Dating just is not my favorite thing, I like it but in moderation. One of these dates came about because on Monday my car decided to break down on the way to class.  I have the best luck in the world.  Oh well, it was fixed for really cheap and I only wasted 4.5 hours of my life waiting on a tow truck (my dad came and waited with). 

CLASS IS ALMOST OVER!!! :)

Thisbe not getting carried away by Prince Charming.