"Thank God I found the good in goodbye."
Earlier this week I started my fourth year of college. I was not really looking forward to it to be honest. Once I was finished with my first day of class I was excited and now I cannot wait to see how this semester unfolds. I realized that I made more friends than I thought at UCO so it was nice to see all of the familiar faces and relieving to see them in my classes. I applied for a paid internship and will not know if I have it until next week. I hope I get it even though I will have no time for myself if I do. To me having time is a waste of time.
Well on to my always interesting "love life." I was dating this guy for over two months only to be stressed out and second guessing myself the whole time. It is amazing to see what you were missing the whole time. I was right the entire time but I did not want to see it. I try to find the good in others, but ultimately I was left feeling really dumb and a bit humiliated. Everything happens for a reason and I wish those reasons were more apparent at times.
One of my best friends wants me to fall in love with him. Good luck with that buddy. I am way too bitter for that. He has been in love with me since the 8th grade. It would be a good story to tell when we are old but I of course second guess his motives. We'll see where this situation ends up.
All of these dating blunders have made me realize that I have some of the best and worst friends. It depends on the day for me which they are. That is normal though right?
I want to be in love and loved in return but it is something I am willing to wait for.
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