Life is strange isn't it? My life has changed so much here lately and it is magnificent. I have found and lost myself. I also, found that I have amazing people in my life and even though we may have our arguments. My best friend has been the only constant in my life since I was 12. Crazy huh?
I love them all more than they know. If it wasn't for them I probably never would have found who I am. I use to be the girl that had to have someone at all times. In fact for five years I was either with or about to be with someone. That is not the case anymore. I have been single for nearly five months and it has been the most stress free months of my life. I am not gonna lie I have cried myself to sleep a few of those nights but that just means I have feelings. If I did not care I would not still love....you.
The reason I have been thinking so much and dreaming of my ex bf's and guys I have dated is because of the dreaded "declare my love for you," day. Valentines day. I am a hopeless romantic and cannot wait for the day I actually like this "holiday." I thought I had found that someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with but he changed his mind and continues to change his mind. I do not think he realizes that this is worse than acting like I never existed to him. The day that he can actually commit to me and only me than I will respect him until he's a coward. I love him but it is the truth.
"When he's the one,
I'll come undone,
And my world will stop spinning
And that's just the beginning."
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